Growing up

Is this what growing up feels like?

when you feel a lot but have no words to say...

when you want to do something but hold back...

because you know its for the best..

when you meet many forms of love in life but you can't understand them all so you just let them be..

when experience teaches you something your childish heart wouldn't have thought of?

what does growing up feel like?

does it feel like trying to be a child again?

does it feel like loving anyone who needs your love because you only have that one thing that you can truly give?

does it feel happy? does it feel sad? or does it feel like flowing water in the stream a motion so natural and fluid..

you can't really feel what it feels like because every moment is so different..

does it feel empty to have grown up? or does it feel full?

empty after letting go of all the dreams...some that you lived and some that you could not realize..

full with the supposed 'wisdom' from

all the things that you have been through...

does it feel like a stationery but very wise tree who has stood the test of time?

or does it feel like a shattered house whose roof collapsed in the last rain storm?

does it feel like a change of season? sometimes bright and sometimes cold?

its really hard to tell now...for that I really have to grow up and grow old...

to tell the tales that I have to tell..and answer my own questions which I pondered so hard on when I knew little..

but would I know so much when I grow up and grow old?

or will I still be child wondering about life like I do now?

who is to say?