Feeling overwhelmed

Now that I have no job but a pursuit of becoming an artist by profession..

I have also developed a dilemma...

Creativity I like, looking at people's creativity, their drawings and their art I like but studying for the qualifying examination is something I keep procrastinating...

Shutting my eyes when I see the challenge looming at me to believe that it will somehow vanish by magic or sheer chance...

Some days go amazingly well when I start the day on the right note by revising my vocab, doing my routine stuff like workout at home, some house chores and gym and a healthy diet and bit of art too along with the social networking that I indulge in..

Some days are just plain poetic when I don't worry about anything study or no study I enjoy myself...

And then there are days of guilt...

When I know I need to study but I binge on other activities like house chores, internet surfing, drawing, talking to family or just thinking..and then I keep on accumulating the foreboding of the piled up to-dos for my GRE..I know they are not many, but these days have the power of making me feel sucked out of life..

Give me a headache, sometimes disturbed sleep too...

And sometimes I feel it's just my body missing the workout it was promised..

You know how they say that working out releases positive hormones in your body?

I guess that's most probably it..

Maybe, maybe not..

Maybe it's just a lack of discipline 

Or just too many distractions...

Or maybe it's my fear of failing to accomplish what I want to achieve..

I need to give myself some pep talk daily I guess so that I keep working hard...

You find it funny? :P 

But I've seen that it actually works on me...

I have never been too much into gym and fitness but I found that reading inspirational tweets has made me look forward to my workouts and observe results in myself and that makes me motivated further...

I guess I need to do the same for my studies...

Sounds like a plan! :)